15 Mar The Importance of Maintaining ‘Who Am I as an Ongoing Inquiry

The importance of asking the question; ‘Who Am I?’, and actually maintaining it as an ongoing inquiry was brought home to me when I recently interviewed my Coach and Therapist Ed Rooke for The Idea of a Man™ Podcast show. I was surprised when Ed stated he himself had still not concluded the answer to the question – ‘Who am I?’, in his life.

I got it. I could say the same myself. ‘Who I am?’, is a question I might be asking for the rest of my life. 

I remember when I was 16 years old. I had just finished high school and was not certain what I wanted to do next. I would go to college but was not able to bring myself to attend classes, I’d initially go into the class room, then once the lesson had commenced as soon as I saw the tutor get up to get their cup of coffee, I’d slip out and find myself wandering around a local graveyard in a bit of a mope. 

Sounds pretty morbid right. Maybe in another article, we’ll explore what was happening for me psychologically at that time, but suffice to say, one of the questions which was dogging me was the general question of existence. 

I remember, as I would walk, I’d literally look at my hands, as if to check it was real. Some internal confusion seemed to be leaving me uncertain about the fabric of existence – and my own existence specifically. What on earth was I doing here? As my adolescent consciousness came further online, something within me sensed that something was not right. 

As I do ‘the work’ I am deepening my relationship with my Soul. And on reflection I sense my Soul Herself perhaps was confused about how She managed to be in this dimension having landed into the body of this ridiculous character. It has taken a long time and a bumpy ride for us to become further acquainted and further more to begin to become deeper integrated with each other. 

Who Am I?, now I recognise I am a Soul travelling through planet earth, in the 3rd dimension in a man’s mortal and finite body learning the lessons that this incarnation of existence teaches through the unique set of circumstances which on this plane brought about Omar Zac Phillips and the ongoing narrative which unfolds around me scenario by situation are the lessons I am here to learn.

I realise as life goes on with all I just said in mind, that all that really matters is the emotions, the energy which is in motion. Because how I feel and respond to life’s circumstances essentially determines if a lesson is well learnt, or if perhaps we need to go again. 

All the material things are simply the details, the eternal part of me is my Soul experiencing life through me and feeding back their experience to Source. 

Therefore, ‘Who am I?’, I AM Source experiencing life through sharing her consciousness with me via my Souls consciousness as it abides within me. 

The only thing which prevents me from this revelation is my inability to acknowledge this reality. David Daida famously said the feminine will be to a man an obsession, then a distraction, until the feminine becomes a revelation. 

I got a revelation when despite my christian upbringing I began to see the Divine not as god the father and god the son, but as The Divine Mother, and the Divine Daughter. I also understood why I had been obsessed and distracted. I was projecting outside myself something I was yet to discover within. This is why the sages of the ages exhort us to ‘Look within’. There is no greater antidote for the ‘roving eye’ than to discover that that which you seek lives within.